Tears Today

Entering my 73rd birthday

I feel pain

Deep Pain

My Body is Hurting

My Spirit is scarred

Perhaps even Bleeding

Hoping for a Respite

of Minutes — at least

Feelings and Though Abound

“I Deserve It”

If, If, If

Only

I will not say

to you

While it isn’t easy

I can’t also Discard

the Feelings

and Thoughts

Squeezing outward

and Inward

Writing in these moments

Helps me Relax

Being in the Pain

Has Meaning

Can’t bring Accountability

but it helps

in the Moment

Thinking of my Father

His Body — shrinking

Losing — his struggle

Nearly 60 Years ago

Only Age 46

and I

Lucky

Having the Opportunities

He Never Had

Can I Regain

The Flame or the Flicker